I'm Not Yours, Not Now and Never.

I have problems in determining what next to do when boys are involved. It’s confusing. Nothing is clear. Like a blurry city view with toxic smoke from cars or mist that fades away dark bushes at the roadside. I also have another problem which get too excited and leads to overly do it but last year I manage to control myself and play a little wait. Here it comes, not a little but too long. Like a long distance, miles and maybe thousands of them. It sucks! Totally! After got myself together, I realized I need to let go. I’m not just tired of waiting but also tired with complexion and other people hatred.

Capricorn never gets easier although months were passed. He is truly a Capricorn. Keeps things inside, do not say a word, wants me to know and understand him well enough but not willing to tell me anything at all. Sigh. Don’t lead me to the wrong path anymore. Stop with your slow, sweet and care talk with me. Stop charming me your sincere smile. I have to open my heart to others. I maybe blind before but I hope I will find someone that can understand and accept me as I am and not listen to other beside me. Maybe it takes a long time for a guy to approach me that perfect but I make friends. No more waiting. I'm not still waiting and will not keep waiting but i'm leaving.

There is someone out there that also actually likes Capricorn. I’m not lost and let her win by giving him up to her but you just know when actually your time to move on when the right time comes. Time to move on as it ticks and tocks in my head. This holiday really meant something. I finally made decision to whatever confusion in my head.

As for now, thank you everything Capricorn. Let us be history. Take a good care of yourself. I was loved you. Goodbye and this time, it is for good.

Truly love from me for you, Capricorn.